Honestly, I never knew it could be such an adventure! If there’s one thing I’ve learned about breastfeeding, it’s that you have to be super dedicated to it for it to work.
As I mentioned, this past weekend I went to NYC for 24 hours to surprise a friend – she had a fantastic time at her bachelorette party, and I’m so glad! It was incredibly hard being away from baby Rachel (so hard that I changed my flight that day to come home a few hours earlier), but the hardest part was making sure to keep up with pumping while I was away. Let me tell you, I was killing my own buzz. Sorry ladies, I’ll be a little late to the burlesque class, gotta pump! Hang on, let me duck into the bathroom of this lounge for a sec! Not fun.
It was such a great time, just a little depressing to be constantly focused on my BOOBS. The other ladies were very reassuring and supportive though. I’m so lucky to have such encouraging friends! I don’t think I could do it without all of the support because shit, man, it’s hard.
I started part-time at work this week. I will be full-time again in two weeks, which is also depressing. I love that we’ve found such a great caregiver for Rachel, but I’m so sad every morning to be leaving her, and that I won’t get all the smiles and snuggles and love during the day. Sure, I’ll be missing the crying and the poopy diapers, but I’d take some of those for the smiles!
It’s so awkward to pump at work. I had to request that one of the conference rooms have a lock placed on it, and explain why I needed that. I’ve been using a currently empty office. It’s like, this is hard enough already, and I know I shouldn’t feel this way, but having everyone know what I’m doing behind closed doors makes me feel embarrassed. I’m trying to get over that.
That’s where I’m at these days. Any of you other working moms have some tips?