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by Christa on May 16, 2012

in Life Story,TNT

Saturday morning is coming.  Quickly.

At 7am I will be treading water with 2500 of my closest friends, waiting for the gun to go off so we can begin the 2.4-mile swim.  Before the 112-mile bike ride.  Before the 26.2-mile (full marathon) run. 

On Saturday, I will be racing in my first Ironman!

I kept it a secret for a long time.  From friends, from teammates, from coaches.  I didn’t want to hear the negativity – that I couldn’t do it, that it was crazy, that I wasn’t experienced enough.   They don’t have any idea what I am capable of.   I don’t think I even have an idea yet.  But hopefully I will on Saturday.

I was reading the intro to Chrissie Wellington’s book, A Life Without Limits.  For those who don’t know, Chrissie Wellington is a 4-time Ironman World Champion.  She didn’t start triathlon til later in life, had no natural athletic abilities, and honed her skills merely through determination and heart – lots and lots of heart.  She said that all Ironman competitors ask themselves the same two things before the race. 1) Will I finish? And 2) At what cost?

I got this someecard from my in-laws this morning.  Aren’t they funny?

Goal #2 for me is always to finish the race.  I know, it should be Goal #1, right?  Yeah but Goal #1 for me is always to not shit myself.  Seriously.  If you don’t know much about endurance sports and effects on gastrointestinal issues, Google can help you.  When your blood is busy keeping your legs moving, you can lose control of basic bodily functions.  TMI, I know.  And Goal #3 is always to finish in under [whatever time goal I have set for myself].  Well, my friends…the day has come when Goals 1 and 2 have switched places.  I want to finish.  And that’s the price I’m putting on it.  Shitting myself.  I would rather shit myself than not finish.  That’s how badly I want to finish.  Ideally, I will finish AND not shit myself, but hey, we can’t have everything we want.  Cross your fingers.

Why am I doing this?  Why would anyone subject themselves to this?  What is the pull, the desire?

Put simply, because I can.  Because WHY THE HELL NOT.  There are people who can’t do this.  I can, and I will.  Team in Training for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society has changed my life.  A year ago I had not yet run my first marathon.  I didn’t really know anyone in Houston.  I weighed almost 140 pounds (while not at all a heavy weight, not MY happy weight and not my natural weight – it was a result of eating garbage and not working out – oh, and lots of wine).  I was very unhappy.  Today, I have run 4 full marathons, 5 half marathons, countless 5Ks and 10Ks, 2 sprint triathlons, 3 Olympic triathlons, and 2 half-ironman distance triathlons.  I have many amazing friends whom I’ve met through TNT, several of whom are blood cancer survivors and have been directly impacted by LLS’ efforts. I have bonded even more with my friends who have since joined.  I weigh 115 pounds (would like to gain just a little back, this is my race weight).  AND I AM SO HAPPY.  I feel healthy, and while Shane and I are both busy bees, we have the best time together and I think this has truly helped our relationship.  It was never rocky, but my unhappiness made it not as bright as it could be…does that make sense?  I can’t say enough good things about TNT. 

I want to raise awareness about TNT and our mission to cure blood cancer.  But I NEED YOUR HELP.  If you have even $5 to donate today, if you’re even slightly interested in what I’ve written here, or just think that the idea of doing an Ironman is pretty cool – won’t you help? I will not stop until we have reached the ultimate finish line – a cure. 

On Friday I get to meet Chrissie Wellington and she’ll sign my copy of A Life Without Limits.  And that’s the way I want to live.

I can do this.

{ 9 comments… read them below or add one }

megan May 16, 2012 at 2:21 pm

I am so freaking impressed. Seriously, you’re a champion, and a rock star, and a superhero, and ALL OF THE AMAZING THINGS. I’ll be thinking about you this weekend, crossing my fingers first that you finish, and second that you do so without shitting yourself. But I admire your courage, because I don’t know many people that would risk that. GOOD LUCK!!!

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Christa May 16, 2012 at 2:25 pm

thanks for the sweet words, megan. that means a lot to me. i laughed out loud at the not-shitting-myself part – thanks for crossing your fingers twice!!! :o )

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KLT May 16, 2012 at 2:34 pm

Oh, man, I got chills reading that. You’re going to have fun and do great because WHY THE HELL WOULDN’T YOU! I’m happy and proud to know you. GO TEAM!

Let’s get shitty (after Ironman)!

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Christa May 16, 2012 at 2:39 pm

I’m happy and proud to know you too. Let’s definitely get shitty (WHY THE HELL WOULDN’T WE?!). GO TEAM :)

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Sasha | Crows' Feet, Cupcakes, and Cellulite May 18, 2012 at 6:22 am

You are a total inspiration, Christa. No, really. I can’t begin to wrap my brain around even training for an Ironman…let alone actually doing it ;) Kick ass and take names, sister….

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Christa May 18, 2012 at 11:02 am

Thanks so much Sasha – I’ll just go out there and do my best. Hopefully the training will pay off.

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Crystal May 18, 2012 at 9:02 am

You are amazing. I really hope I find you on Saturday. I can’t even imagine how amazing you will feel after you are done, and you are on ironman. It brings tears to my eyes to even think about it. You know what percent of people do marathons? Like 1%! An ironman? Much much less!! You’ll be amoung the elite. PS. Can I borrow that book? =)

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Christa May 18, 2012 at 11:03 am

Thanks Crystal!! I hope I see your smiling face out there.
And yes, you can borrow, haha. I also recommend I’m Here to Win by Chris McCormack – very inspiring!

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Kelly L May 24, 2012 at 11:57 am

Remember how I’m always like, “OMG CHRISTA YOU ARE SUCH A BAD-ASS”?

You ARE a bad ass. More proof. I officially rest my case.

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